to be happy or to be angry?
saw someone i shouldnt saw today in library. hais.. felt quite sad also la.
dunno y.. these few days.. things are not goin well for mii.. went for bball.. no ball went in.. was lyk soo toot. ><

i m so sry .. huimin. thou i noe euu wont read.. but i juz wanna apologise becos i m unable to keep the flower for euu.. if nt lata mum will ask wth i doin wif flower.

actually felt quite happy to see her. but i noe she cfm still very angry wif mii. still hates mii.. still ignorin mii.. and i once i saw her. i dunno what to do.. i will still rmb dat the one she really lyk is gre. my ex buddy. felt so sux, so down, so depressed when i saw her. not knowin what to do..

and one thing i must say is dat i dun like pamella okay.. and i hope dat she will noe. she is juz been quite close to mii cos she is my zhu ren. unlike her, kept on runnin away on the sight of mii. do i look so horrible? so scary? i even thought to myself. wth m i? why see run..? first time i felt tat i have been treated lyk a monster.wan to be close to mii yet dun 1 tok to mii even if we met. and we dinn even get to have a proper tok juz lyk normal frens or stead if we really had..

other than all these.. i juz wanna let her noe dat actually i knew that she had alr ''revived'' her blog alr. and i was the first to find out. cos durin all these while when she had deleted her blog. i kept on goin in to see. even thou i noe it had been cancel i juz cant stop but to see ..hopin dat it might be revived one day. until i found it revived and i act blur when euu said euu post ur entry all dat. i kept it from her all these while cos i wan to noe what she was thinkin and now i couldnt care anymore if she 1 to cancel her blog if she noe i have been reading. i knew dat she cancel her blog is cos of mii the other time as she knew dat i was readin it. i m afraid dat she might delete her blog again so i din told her i noe abt her blog. i juz wanna noe dat i have been treasurin her. but no matter what i said. she will think of the opposite way. and this is a reply to her blog. hope dat she will see this>>she is really very impt to mii unlyk what she wrote on her blog and i have been thinkin if those words ILY are true or nt. cos i felt dat eu have been treatin mii very coldy. and lastly i dun love my zhu ren.. in fact i still gt feelins towards euu.. and these are nth but the truth..

and i dunno how to face her.. tryin to forget abt her. but when she pop out infront of mi..my heart melts.. and huimin even smsed mii sayin dat her mamy is jealous of mii and pamella.. hais.. i juz wanna tell her i only like her. i dun lyk zhu ren also, i am damn du lan wif myy cadets.. jeryl + sathia.. ^&$^%#^% euu guys better dun let mii take over euu in the camp or i will take my revenge.. ><

today 3rd of may.. hui min's birthday.. happy birthday to euu my nuer. take care lots n stay chio. =X and btw the gal beside mii today in the library is my fren nt my stead or anythin ok.. she is my meii also.. she is shiqi. we promised each other to study tgt today de.. and and today is also very special day . cos.. its the first day and the first time our buddy hun sheng had corrupted his liver ! haa.. all thx to qihao and mii offerin him alcohol after our bball. lols. 3 OF MAY.. I WILL RMB IT ALWAYS.. =)

tryin very hard to..