hais. maybe anan and hun sheng were right ..

maybe the age gap between us were different dats y..

hais.

felt heart broken...

sometimes i even felt tat we dun really understand each other.

there are times i really wish to let go.

but then.. somethings are difficult to forget.. hais..

and i dun really think i m able to forget..

maybe some of euu might noe.. i tired and had spent ard 1 yr + to frgt that sth..

hais..

and and.. i dun really wish to frgt her.. and i dun think i will be able to..

had to see her everyday in sch. hw m i gonna frgt her?

even if i dun nid to see her.. once i see her classmates.. see her sis. everything will come back to my mind..

maybe i will follow what derek and hun sheng had said.. after long time of rejection then become _____ and then hopfully i hope that i will become 1 in the future..

or should i become lyk faizul (last yr de faizul)become a sexist?

felt that i was a fool a real fool..

yes.. maybe.. maybe i really did her hurt her before.. but i m sure i din realised it till she told mii but i dint do it on purpose..

and ya. i din reliased that you were dat sad.. not unless euu told mii and tell mii y. else how m i gonna noe? hais..

and it is not as if i have a heart that is made of steel that wont hurt.. of course i feel hurt some times without letting you noe. but i try to make myself happy wif those ''haa'' n ''lol'' stuffs.. sometimes i felt its stupid or silly. to haa alone when others are not.. and i even tried sillier things to make myself happy.. by acting lame? taking off my shoe and act as it that was my phone. and make ppl ard mii diao.. let them feel lame..

and i think.. maybe.. maybe even after all these.. i dun even noe if i will dare to start a new hope..


honestly.. i think i wont be able to let it go..


hais. dun wanna make my blog turn into a emo crap or wat..

hope those who are camping right nw.. will be able to njoy thier camp. and i think that most of them will sleep as thou they nv had thier sleep for 10yrs..

the time now is 12.40am.. shall sign off right now..

bye bloggy..

why are my tears nt coming down..?