hais..

its so stupid of mii..


now all angry wif mii..


cos of my stupidness and my truthfulness..

i have made them angry.. esp pamella .. she damn angry and sad wif mii..


today turned damn emo in class.. thinkin how to solve all those problems.. din even have the mood to listen in class.. but honestly i did listen to what all the teacher teach.. except mr nazri.. feel lyk sleepin in class... his lesson are simply too boring..

always had the habit to look beside and around mii on who are dozing off in class b4 mii.. when i felt lyk zZzZ...

why am i always being the emotional guy? cant i be more strong in my feelings like some of my classmates?

hate it.. 1 of my weakness is being too emotional..

why am i the one who is able to cry when nothing had happened? why am i the one able to cry when i m able to cry for fun? and tears would stucked in my eye when things happened and only my heart feel so.. sour.. so sad.. but my tears wont come out?.. i really hate it..

i want to change..

change back to the zhi yuan i was before.. change back to zhi yuan.. the one and only zhi yuan that i was in the past.. and had to change b4 i really regret and fail my o lvl..


to change =??

to ignore them??

to ignore and put down watever things that i cant put down..like shirr ??
or pamella? or jeanice?..


mamy told mii that i have change.. and i have noticed it.. but din noe where i have change.. i wan to go back to the previous yu sheng..

i have changed cos due to the lost of kitson? a best friend whom i do not wish lose...